1st day of the rest of my life!

When I was running this morning, I waited at my car for my workout buddy to finish with her run (her walk actually, as her dog refused to cooperate) and I looked at the beautiful sky, calm, and filled with all of the light pastel colors of a soft Oklahoma sunrise.  I saw a tall white building reflecting a light pink hue.  It looked clean, and had sharp angles and straight lines.  I've never noticed the building before, but I'm noticing many more pretty things as of late. 

My mornings used to involve working out at 5:30am, going home and savoring every last minute that I have for my life to be my own before I report to the dumping ground for the collective problems of a population of half and full-on lunatics suffering from mental, emotional and chronic physical problems.  This morning was different.  I was able to finish my workout, let my partner treat me to a delicious coffee substitute, and take time to enjoy the morning heat, before it reaches unbearable temperatures.  

I can now take a deep breath as a method of truly enjoying the fresh air around me and not as a coping mechanism for tolerating irrational people and their irrational angry thoughts all directed specifically, yet unduly at me. 


I took a nice, long, cool shower and was able to really care for my body, unlike a rushed morning shower where one is not in the moment but rather is thinking 2 steps ahead so nothing is forgotten and all is accomplished on time.  


I started to clean the kitchen and take mental inventory of all the things I would like to do today.  I have full awareness that I can do things in my own time, and that I'll be every bit as productive as I want to be, because I have all the time I need and I lack the maddening stress that I've been under.  I feel so free!  


So for today:
~  I will contact my (former) employer and let her know that I will be filing for unemployment (which she has already agreed not to contest in any way).  
~  I will update my resume
~  I have started a blog!!  
~  I will develop a list of my transferable job skills
~  I will develop a list of potential careers that interest me
~  I will develop a list of things that I would like out of life and out of a career
~  I will file for unemployment
~  I will do some home maintenance, such as cleaning out closets and cabinets
~  I will take a picture put my office desk and put it up for sale on Craigslist
~  I may or may not continue scraping wall paper off of my office walls
~  I will say some prayers of thanks throughout the day for the intervention God played in my life.  I will accept treatment for a dead end existence!

So let it be written, so let it be done!

I can't wait to take on this day and to live presently, knowing that I never have to return to that cesspool of psychological abuse.  


Happy Happy Day!








I'll finish each blog entry as I used to finish my journal entries, by quoting the song that is currently playing in my head:


---wow, there's actually no song playing in my head at the moment.  well this is awkward.